Maybe I Should Use My Blog After All...

So when I started my blog last fall, I thought it would be fun... but as you can tell, I posted twice and then stopped. I realized that my life as a single twenty-something woman in the workforce was pretty non-exciting and figured blogs really were for married-with-kids girls who wanted to talk about their wonderful husbands and children. It's a lame excuse, I know, but I stopped blogging.

Until now.

Why shouldn't I blog about my life? I LOVE my life! Sure, I don't have any anecdotes about the latest thing my two-year-old did - but who cares! I will have a family someday - I have been promised that - but the moment that happens does not mark the moment my life begins!

So here's my life at the moment...

I work full-time at the Beehive Clothing Manufacturing plant in American Fork. It is the hardest job I have ever had (since I am not yet a mother) but it has also been one of the best things I could have possibly chosen to do. I have been humbled. I have been taught to pray more earnestly than ever. I have been shown true grace - an enabling power - every day when I somehow finish another eight hours of production work. I am reminded daily of the sacredness of the temple and the remarkable blessing I have of being endowed with knowledge and strength. And so my job is difficult and even makes me cry in desperation sometimes - but I wouldn't have it any other way.

I have moved so much during the last year - but it has helped me evaluate my possessions and slowly get rid of the things I don't need. It has shown me how immeasurably blessed I am with so many comforts and perks. Whenever I start to complain, I take a step back. Who am I to complain? I have the gospel, a wonderful family, a job with benefits, food, clothing, shelter, my own room, air conditioning, a good little car, music, books, modern medicine, a temple just five minutes from my house... who am I to complain? So I do my best not to!

And then last month, the biggest miracle of my life so far happened. I met Brent.



It shouldn't have even happened! I didn't intend to renew my subscription at LDSMingle.com for another month - it was a "mistake". I smile when I think about it. The prophets say that if we look for it, we will always see the Lord's hand in our lives. I couldn't agree more!

I have been afraid for years that I was just too damaged to fall in love - that I wouldn't be able to, or that I wouldn't find someone who could love me. I tried to have faith - again, I have been promised a good husband and children - but it just seemed so hopeless! Last year my mom told me that she knew I would get married "soon" - I would laugh and say "Mom! You have to DATE to get married! And you have to find a guy that wants to do something as basic as carry on a conversation with you before you can date!"

Well, as a brilliant song says, "Some things take faith. I know that's true." I prayed and prayed and prayed to be the person I should be, to know how to improve myself, to know how to be ready for my eternal companion, wherever he was, and to live my life in a way that I would be able to find him. I prayed to have good judgment. I prayed to know what was really important to me in the man I was looking for. I prayed for the ability to overcome my fears and to open myself to being loved again.

God hears my prayers!

Brent is the kindest man I have ever known. He sees past my flaws and loves me for who I am. He is a hard worker and a righteous priesthood holder. He is happy and upbeat. He is everything that is on the top of my "this is what is most important to me" list! AND, he's pretty dang good-looking if I do say so myself ;)

And so I say again - God hears and answers prayers.

Well, I need to get ready for church, so I will end this post with the words of comedic genius Brian Regan: "Can life get any better? I submit that it cannot!!!"